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Post by Skye Caine on Mar 8, 2008 0:57:00 GMT -5
"Well I was suppose to be a boy and be named after my Grandfather but I came out as a girl. So the did the girl version of Lucius." Lucinda said, "I hate my name from first letter to last. I don't see it as a honnorable family name. I see it as a curse. A burdden. I'm so trapped with it. Limited to friends. Can't make friends. Everytime I look in the mirror after acting like a real Malfoy to keep people in the dark of the true me. All I see staring back at me is someone I don't know."
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Post by lynn7 on Mar 8, 2008 13:23:47 GMT -5
Lucy, Lilith could tell was tired of being the person her family wanted her to be. Lilith felt remorse For lucy but thought to herself that if she were in that situation she wouldn't want someone to be sorry she'd want someone that she could just talk to and vent. She looked at Lucy and said, " Lucy I can admit I have no idea what you feel. I mean my parents are the nicest but they let me be who I am at home. Though in public I must be like them but I never have to really do it at school. Though they prefer I remain true to their name."
She kept thinking aloud. She looked at Lucy and bit her lip a little. " I know we aren't super close yet but I'm here if you ever want to talk about anything.... I mean I understand if that is too bold to say. But if I was in a situation such as yourself. I wouldn't want anyone to be sorry just have someone that would just listen... I'm sorry I think aloud a lot. So I’m sorry if anything offends you."
Lilith put her half-finished essay back into her bag and looked back at Lucy.
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Post by Skye Caine on Mar 8, 2008 14:06:22 GMT -5
"I take offence to nothing except if someone doesn't give me the chance or time of day to hear me out and know that a Malfoy by blood and name I may be but to heart and mind I am just a misunderstood girl who's forced to be something she's not just so she can survive in her own home." Lucinda said, "Not many understand my position nor believe me when I tell them."
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Post by lynn7 on Mar 8, 2008 15:24:37 GMT -5
Lilith listened to her and nodded. She understood where Lucy was coming from and she looked at Lucy with her deep brown eyes and they showed nothing but understanding. She was quiet for a moment trying to gather her thoughts and finally decided. " Lucy. Anyone who does that doesn't deserve to really live. I mean yeah they are probably intimidated but seriously I didn't think anything of your name when you said it. You really don't do anything like your Father or his line. I mean it sucks that people do that but after a while you just have to think that they are just fearful of your family name. If they are afraid of your last name than in the long run maybe they weren't really worth your attention at all."
She looked down and felt stupid for saying what she did. But she did think that it was stupid for someone to judge just on his or her last name. Malfoy really she had heard it wasn't the nicest family but she never really thought badly of them. She looked at Lucy and said. " If it counts I believe you. You can't just make something like that up.... and from how strongly you feel you really have felt this way a long time. So I believe you so that's one more person on your side...."
She smiled a little. Trying to show Lucy that what she was saying was the whole truth, which showed in her eyes very well as she made eye contact with her
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Post by Skye Caine on Mar 8, 2008 15:31:14 GMT -5
"Thanks." Lucinda said with a small smile, "It means alot. I mean I've been trying to tell Potter and Black that so they'd quit pranking me but no luck with them. It still continues. Sometimes I just don't want to live. Ya I have friends that care, a caring sister, and a boyfriend but all in all I don't want to live where so many hate me. I just want to die."
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Post by lynn7 on Mar 8, 2008 15:43:13 GMT -5
Lilith Listened and nodded and returned the smile weakly and shook her head from left to right. " Nope nope nope. NO dying. But yeah it must suck living in a world where so many are scared or hate your family and you have to deal with it. Can't really have the world’s greatest life. But you do have those people that will look out for you always. Which sometimes it's better to have a few friends that love you and will watch your back no matter what than having a lot of friends and them not defend you at all."
Lilith said looking down at the table. She shouldn't be one to talk she had the hardest time lately making any friends at all. She thought about how over the year she was becoming like her brothers and less like herself. She looked up and pushed the thoughts of her brothers to the back of her head. As Lucy grabbed her attention.
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Post by Skye Caine on Mar 8, 2008 16:07:19 GMT -5
Lucinda nodded a bit and said, "Yes true. I wish I'd quit being pranked around every corner I turn. People just have no respect for others feelings. No sympathy at all. You've probably never been pranked so many times in a row that you just feel like no one cares. So many times to where you just want to dissappear." Lucinda said as she pushed her hair from her face. She felt horrible.
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Post by lynn7 on Mar 8, 2008 18:30:25 GMT -5
Lilith could tell that Lucy was hurt. She looked at her and sadly knew somewhat of how she felt. She took a minuet to gather her thoughts and words and finally her caring eyes met Lucy's once again and she smiled a little comforting smile. Than she said, " Lucy. Your right I haven't had an ounce of what you have to deal with. But your feelings do count Lucy. More than anyone can realize. The boys they don't see that you aren't at all like your father or grandfather. Knowing them they are probably raised thinking that anyone related to your father is bad news and thinks that you are too. But I don't and you can't disappear, your way too nice for that. Those boys will learn over time not to and if you want I can prank them back.... I grew up with two brothers only girl I know some very 'nice' pranks."
Lilith smiled a little and tried to make Lucy feel like she was better than what the guys were making her feel. Nobody deserved to think that it was okay to feel like they just wanted to disappear. Lilith looked down and closed the book in her lap. She gently placed it in her book bag and looked at Lucy and it was her turn to talk and let her thoughts be heard.
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Post by Skye Caine on Mar 8, 2008 18:46:24 GMT -5
Lucinda nodded and said, "Well Potter's, Weasley's, and Black's grew up hating Malfoy's. So I'm their target for pranking." She sighed, "I wish they'd reallize the truth. I already feel bad enough." Lucinda crossed her arms and layed them and her head on the table. She sighed and looked at the floor. She dodn't want to be around the school anymore she wanted to leave. but couldn't
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Post by lynn7 on Mar 8, 2008 22:12:05 GMT -5
Lilith watched Lucy and as she did she just felt like a girl her age shouldn't be so miserable and have only one worry and that should be to pass school. Unfortunately Lilith also knew that life wasn't at all that easy and she breathed a few breaths and looked down when she smiled. She finished packing up her stuff all while she was doing this she was thinking through her idea. She saw that All of Lucy's stuff was packed away. She smiled big now and she hadn’t smiled like that in a long long time.
She bent down grabbed her dark blue messenger bag and stood up leaving her chair unoccupied. She grabbed Lucy's and than grabbed lucy's hand and pulled her out of her chair handed her bag with her menial smile that she had gotten from her father that said nothing good was going through her head by now. " Come on Lucy! We are leaving going out just gonna forget about the school crap for once. Any friends you want to invite? My dad gave me money before we left I have so much butter beer it's almost sickening and we are just gonna go and hang and drink them. But I mixed in firewhiskey too.... My dad left me alone and I might have 'accidentally' switched some. What do you say??"
Lilith really wasn't going to take no for an answer so she let Lucy choose anyway even though it was going to happen anyway.
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Post by Skye Caine on Mar 8, 2008 22:35:34 GMT -5
Lucinda smiled and said, "Sounds great. Besides we can get Fire Whiskey like mad in the Hogs heade. That place never checks ages." She took her bag from Lilith and said, "Lets go!" She began walking maybe she did just need to let herself go." She put her hair up and sighed. This was her time to just let loose and forget everything. For a little while anyways before reality came back into the game.
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